Playing "Follow the Leader"

I have been looking back at many of the FORMING moments in my life since moving to my "City of Glory" (NYC) in 2008. The day I said "yes" to something so foreign, yet strangely familiar, everything changed. Even as God knew me before the foundation of the world, it's like there was a homing device in the deepest part that drew me to this place where me and my dreams would come alive. Every step of the way, every mishap, every blip, every adventure, and every turn is what makes up a somewhat chaotic looking road-map, which is as perfect as the Leader I was following.

One of the highlights is a bleak, grey, and rainy day when I was walking on a NYC street I had never been, unusually alone, and with tears streaming down my face, hidden by a well placed umbrella. As a girl who is constantly dreaming, creating, laughing, and living a romantic comedy in my mind, I was strangely numb and a little scared of "the next." The scenes were not playing out exactly like I imagined and I began to ask a lot of questions. Avoiding potholes filled with muddy water and remembering to not stand within "splash range" of the taxis, helped to distract me from the task at hand of being a little too introspective.

At that moment, "Show Me Your Glory" came exploding through my headphones and I listened to "I see the cloud, and I step in" over and over again. Then it was there. There was a thicker cloud under that umbrella than any of the ones covering the tops of buildings. His Presence enveloped me from head to toe and words were no longer needed. The answers mysteriously found their way to my heart. The joy that functions like my skin began to do it's job. The great city whose streets I adored began to pull a greatness out of me that looked like compassion as His smile covered me like liquid love.

On those streets, I began a journey to learn how to really trust that my Maker had not forgotten how He had created me. It was He who had put the impossible dreams and desires inside the very fiber of my being. He had only to look at me once with those perfect eyes and I was forever a "yes man" to Him. We began creating a new history that would unlock levels of passion as they were needed. Fear couldn't stand a chance with such massive amounts of love swirling me.

That grey day had more color and life than the first day of spring and all of a sudden I wasn't afraid to dream even bigger, walk more streets I had never been on before, and play my favorite game, "Follow the Leader."