I Used To Write Love Songs

You know those people who are ridiculously in love and just can't stop talking about it? It's like...somehow the sky is always the perfect shade of blue. The sun literally follows them around...even at night time. The moon tugs on their heart as powerfully as it pulls the tides. Even when it's raining, it's not annoying because each drop of water carries a rainbow reflection of the bigger picture. That person can see romance and beauty in a single daisy pushing up from the crack in a filthy sidewalk. Even just writing about this stuff makes their heart do flip flops!!! Hahahahaha

You see, I used to write love songs. I believed in a love that was so strong, so deep, and so perfect that it could draw two people from across the globe into a moment that would change their lives in one instant. I would stand next to an ocean and experience the passionate love of the Creator, knowing that somewhere there was someone as impressed with Him as I was. I would lay in the grass and try to count the stars while remembering the prophetic words, the promises, the hopes, the dreams, and even the realities that made me believe it was more than just possible. I would take an amazing movie and re-write the ending to be even better and then swear it was actually in the script.

I actually believed 2 little single girls could show up on the scene in NYC and see a cultural revolution. I had the audacity to believe we could rise above what society around us defined as "the solid facts." I was that girl...the one some might label as having a "Pollyanna", "everything's puppy dogs and rainbows", "out of touch with reality" view of life that would do nothing more than set me up for disappointment. I was that larger than life lover who simply wouldn't take anything less than the "happily ever after" in life, love, work and play. That was me.

Then, reality set in. The truth came exploding into my daydream. My little happy bubble popped. The sky opened up, birds started chiming in to what the angels were singing, the clouds started painting love notes about my smile, and my heart had wings like a hummingbird.....ALL OF A SUDDEN, I woke up from the dream! The alarm clock screamed into my moment and jolted me back to my NOW...the TRUTH...the FACTS...the CONSTANT...the REAL...planet Earth.

I laughed OUT LOUD because I realized I had set my expectations too low and needed to turn it up a notch to even begin to touch HIS REALITY EXPLODING INTO MINE. Then, I laughed some more, smiled the biggest smile, and knew I was even more in love than I was before.